Monday, Jun. 14, 2004 | 2:35 AM

I just got back.

And this was hand's down the very best most romantic most life changing spiritual weekend I have ever had. And I can't say anything else about it right at the moment. Maybe I'll tell the whole story later.

But right now it's still so fresh and new and I want to hold it to myself like a sleeping baby and just let it breathe.

I never thought I would know the days I know now-- days filled with such joy and bloom. Days that are utterly lacking in deprivation.

My world is a safe exciting place. And I am so hblissful and blessed. The rest of life can fall away. History recedes and all that is real is right now.

There is only an endless present and that present is filled with love.