Friday, Jun. 04, 2004 | 2:11 PM

I�m so randy today I can�t stand it.

The more we�re together the more I want him. It�s like heroin.

I have never felt so attracted to someone before. We are so sexually on the same page that it�s unreal. That I think is the part of the relationship that surprises me the most. Yes, he�s a beautiful (oh dear God he�s so beautiful) and yes I�ve always been attracted to him. But this was never something based on lust�not in the least. The sexual element was always an afterthought to me. It was always about the connection we had intellectually and emotionally.

Well, I guess the sex is infused with that, which is why it�s so good.

I�ve been with like 20 people and never ever EVER have I experienced something like this. I fucking SEE GOD when we are together. I think he�s ruined sex for me with anyone else ever. I have no desire other than for him.

I am so fucking happy. He keeps me on my toes and drives me bananas but makes me feel so safe and secure and loved.

Our love is perfect.

God damn�what the fuck did I do to deserve this.