Friday, Mar. 05, 2004 | 11:25 AM

I am a drooling, foolish idiot and I�m sorry and I wish I could say to you everything that I want to say about what you mean to me and all the things I�d like to do for you and how if I could I would give you anything you ever wanted. I dreamed last night that I bought you a piano and you played and sang for me and it was the happiest dream I ever had.

I love you so so so so much and I can�t tell you and I feel like a fucking jerk for that and I�m sorry because I wish I was more articulate and less damaged and less of a coward. And I wish I didn�t feel this compulsion to go make out with other people all the time. And I wish we could get a house together and some cats, and like, an afghan and a tea pot. And I wish you were there next to me when I woke up this morning.

I love you. I love you like I didn�t know I could love someone.

It�s all kinda unfair.