Saturday, Oct. 18, 2003 | 7:21 AM

I've been up all night.

So it�s 7:17 AM and I broke my no sex promise. Not only did I break my promise to myself, I broke it for five hours straight. Is this good or bad? Only time will tell. I�m drinking a beer. And I feel fucking great. Is this momentary great or actual great? Is this great in the long run or just short term idiot decision great?

I don�t know. I had a fucking outstanding god damned time tonight though.

Oh, the thing about the Ice Queen Act is this�it buys you time. It buys you time to think about your reaction and about what really ocurred. It enables you to momentarily suspend all interaction and just DEAL.

And then you can get on with things and talk about them rationally.

And then you can have really really good sex.

Oh Jesus. What the hell am I getting myself into?