Friday, Apr. 11, 2003 | 8:16 AM

So.

It looks like there is a very strong possibility that I will be the new lead singer of a band. A band that has guitars, keyboards, drums, and base. And that is influenced by the likes of The Cure and the Cocteau Twins and Siouxsie and the Banshees. A band that has practice space and has a set practice time once a week, and everyone is really serious and they have gigs n' shit.

Sweet, huh? And I get full lyric writing duty. This won't start probably until August after their current lead singer goes off to law school. It's still just in the maybe stage, but I have a good feeling about it. I would get a huge kick out of singing in a band again-- especially one with lots of instruments and that's different than anything I've ever done before.

It's always funny how things work out. How fucking awesome everything is right now. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought...

OK so this Mr. Wonderful thing is getting out of hand. I feel like such a tool. All woozy and nervous and ridiculous as hell around him and he barely knows I exist. Sometimes he pays me all kinds of attention and other times (like yesterday) he totally ignores me. Such is the story of my life. I am the Queen of Unrequited Love-- on both ends. I don't think I can ever remember a time when someone liked me and I liked them at the same exact time-- OK that one year... but that's it. Otherwise it's the constant two ships passing in the night dilli-o.

But I guess that works out well. I'm a great friend and a great lover. But a pretty shitty girlfriend. And I think relationships are overall bad for me, so it's probably a blessing that my crushes from now on go unrequited, and I continue to have satisfying sexual encounters with a variety of different people.

In other news, at last night's rehearsal, Curtis (whom I play opposite) and I did our stage kiss for the first time. It was really cute-- right after we kiss, he has a line. So we kissed and he looked into my eyes, and he was silent and then he goes...

uh... line?

And he got all blushy and said,

I'm sorry-- I just got a little flustered. Can we do that again?

So of course we had to wind up kissing on stage like five times. He's such a sweetheart and so totally endearing that it's very easy to play opposite him.

Opening night is 28 days away, so get yer tickets if you haven't already!