Monday, Sept. 20, 2004 | 10:11 AM

Oh my fucking God I�m so happy.

(I know I know-- how many times can I state this? But I have never felt like this before and it only gets better and better.)

We got a show at the Middle East Upstairs. Woo hoo! And within two days, two leading Boston local music promoters/scenesters wrote me some very complimentary emails. That warmed the cockles of my heart.

And yesterday Matt took me out to a very fancy Indian Dinner in Harvard Square and then we went record shopping.

Came home and laid in bed listening to The Zombies� Odyssey and Oracle and The Shins and Guided by Voices and Donna Summer and the Doors. And we made love and it was mind blowing as always and I can�t believe how good it is and continues to get. We make love every single fucking day at least once. WOW.

And we stayed up talking and kissing until 3AM.

I can�t believe what the universe has bestowed on me.

Wedding/honeymoon planning is going into overdrive.

Why wait when you KNOW? And it�s so good to be with this incredible human being who isn�t scared, or complacent or safe. But makes these well thought out choices and who loves me more than I ever imagined was possible and I love him and we do things for each other all the time and it doesn�t feel like work.

We watched a Might Wind on Saturday. That is one hilarious movie. I can�t wait to see what Christopher Guest and co. do next.