Wednesday, Sept. 15, 2004 | 3:52 PM

Everything is wonderful and ideal right now. I am so glad that Matt asked me to marry him. I am so fucking happy. Everything is perfect.

OK-- so wedding plans.

About 150 guests. Either my backyard or Matt's backyard (probably mine) and our new agey mom's are officiating and they�re gonna do all kinds of cool Goddess worship stuff and ancient wiccan rituals for the ceremony.

The wedding party is:

Maid of Honour: My sister Beth

Best Man: Matt�s best friend Dave

Bridesmaids: my sister Sarah, Lynn, and one other person whom I�m not sure of yet

Ushers: Matt�s friend Steve, Angus, and my brother David

This is the best looking wedding party ever. Those boys are going to look HOTT in tuxes (I believe they are wearing top hats too.)

Beth is writing a string concerto. Matt and I are writing our own vows and we�re also doing this thing where Matt as a the Aquarian water bearer will fill a fish bowl with water and then I the Piscean will put two fish in the bowl. This signifies our coming together.

Wedding date is August 20th which is astrologically sound for both of us.

I know how fucking flaky this sounds on paper and I don�t give a shit because I�m in love I�m in love I�m in love I�m in love I�m in love with a wonderful guy. And it may seem fast but it�s not when your heart just KNOWS something. It�s not really that fast anyway�five months since we got together. And we�ll have been together for over a year when we get married.

Anyway�

Reception is in the backyard. Delicious appetizers and then some entrees�all served bouffet style. And a big fucking ridiculous cake with tons of tiers. And lots of wine and beer and lemonade and punch.

And as for music, Matt and I are making like twenty CD mixes and it�ll be a friend of my mom�s job to just keep popping em in the CD player as they finish.

And then after that we whisk off to spend the night in a hotel and THEN the next morning we fly to the Caribbean for our honeymoon where we will do nothing but fuck and drink and be in love and snorkel and swim and have adventures.

I have everything I want right now. EVERY FUCKING THING. My band. My boy. Wonderful friends. A supportive caring family. Life rules.