Friday, Feb. 20, 2004 | 1:17 PM

It�s Friday and it�s a beautiful day. I woke up this morning laughing. I�m wearing my Rivendale dress and I have a great weekend to look forward to. Intimate dinner tonight with Angus. Company rehearsal tomorrow afternoon. Tomorrow evening going to see Trinity Test, The Hound, For Your Own Good, and Life In Your Own Way with Liz at some free basement show in Allston (by the way�last time I lived in Allston I fucking hated it. Now I love it. I LOVE living in Allston.) and then Sunday hanging out with Matt and then that evening BAND PRACTICE.

Here is where I want to be five years from now�

You know what makes me so super glad all over? Every single thing I�m doing right now is not only highly enjoyable, but something that is actively taking me towards where I want to be five years from now. God I�m so happy.

When I got home last night I cracked open a PBR after my long, productive, beautiful day and I lounged around in my underwear (It�s black and sexy and new. Woo hoo!) watching Mr. Show and laughing my ass off until I finally fell asleep. And I only got three hours of shut eye again last night because I�m so excited and all I can think about is music, but that�s OK.

I love being in band that has no compunction about wearing our cheesiest influences proudly like a great big spray painted hot pink heart on our collective musical sleeve. We are so totally different than anything else that�s going on right now.

I love life. I love music. I love you.

In closing, here are fifty bands I would have wanted to be my valentine if you could make love to a whole band (not the people in the band but the concept)

1. The Hollies

2. Anti-Love Project

3. The Derelict Brew

4. The Guess Who

5. Duran Duran

6. Iron & Wine

7. Writers in Crisis

8. Radiohead

9. The Mamas and the Papas

10. Slowdive

11. The Microphones

12. Three Dog Night

13. The Vaselines

14. The Association

15. The Flaming Lips

16. Guided by Voices

17. X

18. Stereolab

19. Tommy James and the Shondells

20. Gladys Knight and the Pips

21. Slayer

22. The Turtles

23. The Cure (especially circa Pornography which is the moodiest darkest record of the 80�s, I think. I love it even more now that I�m not depressed.)

24. Pavement

25. Air (new Air=fucking good)

26. VU

27. The Who

28. The Thirteenth Floor Elevators

29. T Rex

30. The Verlaines

31. The Swirlies

32. The Dresden Dolls

33. Sebadoh

34. This Kind of Punishment

35. The Mountain Goats

36. Mecca Normal

37. The Shangri Las

38. Siouxsie and the Banshees (circa Hyena when Robert Smith was playing with them)

39. The Kinks

40. Red Krayola

41. Curve

42. The Slits

43. Pink Floyd

44. Black Sabbath

45. Belle & Sebastian

46. Chic

47. The Beastie Boys

48. Ohio Express

49. Kraftwerk

50. Massive Attack

Oh, and PS�Matt�s friggin parents took him to see Peter Murphy live when he was like twelve. Is that not the fucking coolest thing ever?