Tuesday, Feb. 03, 2004 | 10:34 AM

There is nothing better than being in a play. Nothing better than having this whole character to get to know and create. Nothing better than doing all the research. Noithing better than sitting around fabricating this person�s history. Rehearsals haven�t even started yet and it�s already there. Goddammit I�m happy.

And there�s nothing better than being in a band. Learning the song. Singing three part harmonies. Talking about lyrics.

It�s all pretty wonderful.

The only thing that might be better is being in love with someone. This is scary to say but I get less and less cynical every day and there�s a part of me that thinks maybe it would be possible to really be with someone, and that maybe there is such a thing as �True Love� and you know it when you find it.

Maybe I�m full of shit. I don�t know. But when I think about him I can�t help smiling and all I want for him is to be happy in whatever way that comes about. I really really love him so much. And I�m not worried anymore about what�s going to happen, because whatever happens I�m just happy he�s in my life in any way that he is.

I�d marry him. I�m not kidding. It�s funny when you just know. I can�t imagine ever loving anyone more.