Tuesday, Dec. 23, 2003 | 12:24 PM

Matt emailed me back. He is coming over for brunch with my family on the 26th. Good news.

Angus called last night. He is going haywire without me and I hate to say it but I am sort of glad to hear it�only because it�s nice to be appreciated and loved, and sadly sometimes we don�t appreciate or love each other until we are apart. We had a really good talk last night. I really treasure him and everything he means to me.

I love being home and spending time with my family. I love Christmas. I love Matt. I love my friends.

I had a dream last night that I was laid off from my job and it was the happiest moment of my existence.

I can�t believe this year is almost over. It�s been the most important year of my life thus far. I�m turning 27 in March. A psychic told me that this is going to be a major year for me�that everything�s been leading up to it. I feel that too. I don�t know exactly what, but if this year was big, next year is going to be fucking monumental.

I have my benefit concert to prepare for. I am stressed about buying an evening gown.

I�ve been walking three-five miles every day and it�s made a major difference for me emotionally, physically, and mentally.

I am making Matt a mix for xmas. Will post tracks when finished.