Tuesday, Sept. 09, 2003 | 9:20 AM

It�s strange to feel so happy about simple things�it reminds me of being very young. I feel younger now than when I was 18 years old, but also a lot wiser. I�ve been such a narcissist in the past and so desperately needy that I forgot to just look around and appreciate life for what it really is and the things it has to offer me. This is an ever evolving process and it�s always a couple steps up and back. But for instance, yesterday it was so beautiful out and I got home from work and made myself a tuna sandwich. Then I practiced my monologues and I read my Judy Garland book for awhile and later Angus came to my room and we hung out for hours and hours. A perfect day.

I love that the two of us have the same schedule but don�t feel the need to spend every minute together. It�s so lovely to be woken up by him in the morning and to see him most nights before I go to sleep, to hear him say

Goodnight darlin� and get a hug or a kiss before tucking into afghans. And sometimes being in his room but usually alone in mine.

God, I LOVE boundaries.

I am wearing my Ouisa Kittredge outfit today, which is a long elegant black dress, pearls, and hip blue framed glasses. I am actually getting really excited for the audition even though I know I�m not going to get anything�both of my monologues are so much fun to perform�I�m doing one from Sam Shepard�s Savage Love and one from The Great Gromboolian Plain by Don Nigro, and I�ve worked really hard on them, so I�m just trying to see the audition as a fun opportunity for me to show my stuff rather than a means to an end.