Wednesday, Jul. 16, 2003 | 8:48 AM

Ugh.

There are so many people I am worried about right now. I have a friend who�s really sick and in another state whom I haven�t talked to in like, months. And my mom called me this morning sobbing hysterically because she�s so in debt (yeah, my family is not the best at dealing with money. Not at all)

I talked her down and I think she�s doing better, but I feel like shit right now.

I feel like I get off so easy in my own life. In certain ways I haven�t. I�ve had a lot of terrible things happen that haven�t been in my control, but some of the stuff I�ve fucked up on I�ve gotten off scott free, and it pains me to see that other people don�t have my kind of luck�I feel much of the time like I�m walking under some kind of special supernova of protection.

Someday I�m going to be ridiculously successful and then I�m going to take care of everyone else, and in the mean time I�m going to make even more of a conscious effort to do good deeds in the world. It�s the very least I can do.