Friday, Jun. 13, 2003 | 2:38 PM

Oh. My. Gosh.

Today is the anniversary of so many things. It�s the anniversary of my peeps having found me again and reconnecting with them�Jonee, Kelly, Josh, Tara, et al. And it�s the anniversary of the first time I met Debbie. And it�s the anniversary of having found out something very important that made me see things in an entirely different way.

It�s really and truly the anniversary of the very beginning of this brand new life that I have.

So I�m going to celebrate today because this year has been one of the most important, eye opening, productive, amazing, difficult, and inspiring periods of my whole life.

This year was a serious turning point. Shortly after 2003 dawned I was about one inch away from killing myself. I�ve had those crises before but never ever quite like that. The pain was so unbearable that it was physical. And it turns out powerfully transformative.

My bad days used to outnumber the good days 10 to 1 and now the ratio is reversed. I read my older entries now and I�m reading words written by a different person. I was so unhappy for so long and I didn�t even know how unhappy I was.

And tomorrow is my first solo show�of course Alamada is accompanying me and she�s fantastic, but it�s my show. And that is really really exciting.

So many people I love are going to be there. Ivy is going to be there (swoon.)

And you should be too. Come see the show at the Charles Playhouse Lounge, tomorrow night at 11:30 (get there early if you want a table �cause my hunch is it�s gonna be crowded.)