February 12, 2003 | 1:39 PM

So yeah apparently Armageddon is upon us

Being the selfish twat that I am, here are the first things that ran through my mind:

1) MY FAMILY. I WANT MY FAMILY.

2) OK�I live alone. So basically, if this happens�I am on my own. I have no one to look to for comfort. No one to curl up with. That is truly terrifying. And being alone and not knowing where anyone is, I will be having a heart attack worrying about all of them.

3) What if we all die before all the shit in my life gets resolved? Great�that would be just great if I died angry with people I love or they die angry with me.

4) Figures that right after I actually go back to doing the one thing I really love-- theater, that the world as we know it ends. I doubt that anybody is going to mount a production of Cabaret if half the US is destroyed.

5) SEAN. SEAN IS IN NEW YORK. I LOVE SEAN MORE THAN ALMOST ANYTHING> SEAN�GET OUT OF NEW YORK AND COME BACK HERE AND STAY WITH ME NOW.

So right now, I am really freaked out. I have a very bad feeling about all of this.