February 04, 2003 | 11:57 AM

You know what?

I�ve been feeling profoundly sexual lately. From the inside out I feel this remarkable glow emanating. Sex has finally been divorced from all the other crap�need, possession, validation, entrapment�and has finally become just exactly what it is� another method of connecting with humankind.

And my sexuality has become much more fluid. I love boys. I love girls. I hate labels�gay, bi, straight�BLAH. I understand that such labels can be politically empowering to people who are treated poorly based on whom they love, and I support anyone's right to define themselves in any way they wish. But personally, I just feel like I love and am attracted to PEOPLE. Everyone is so beautiful and has so much to offer. I love penises and I love vaginas. I love breasts and I love Adam�s apples. I love BODIES. And I am learning to finally love my own body.

The more I do exactly what I want to do without being frozen by fear that I�m not good enough, the more confident I am in everything and everyone. I�m finally enjoying my body. I�m liking all my flesh and my curves. I like how I move. I like my feet and my hands and my legs and my ass and my tits and my belly. I like what I have. I like the pleasure that I can give and receive. It�s finally good enough. I don�t have to keep waiting for the day that I magically become 135 lbs. to enjoy myself and like who I am. I can do that right now. I am sexy as hell and so is everyone else.

I feel so fucking liberated from all (OK�well most, say 95%) of my old CRAP about sex. This past couple weeks has been deeply healing in that regard. I can enjoy sex without freaking out about what�s gonna happen or what it all means

Yay for therapeutic breakthroughs.