January 30, 2003 | 9:42 AM

Oh Jesus I am in such a good mood today. I feel so goofy and silly and wonderful and grand. Because I love theater and theater is now back in my life. Theater is my first love and it�s real and true and forever.

Right now I love everyone and everything and I feel like a silly ingenue in a Rogers and Hammerstein show. I just wish everyone the absolute best in the world. I only want good things for everyone I�ve ever met and my heart is so full right now it�s overflowing.

God I�m glad I auditioned for that play. I really hope I get to be a part of it.

I feel all the bitterness and sadness draining out of me. All the resentment. All the anger. I am so grateful and this entry is just going nowhere because I�m too fucking happy to write now.

Saturday is my sister�s birthday and I�m having a small dinner party with lots of delicious food and whatnot. And Sunday I�m taking my sister to The H&H Ballet Music From the French Court concert.

Everything is all good.