Monday, Apr. 19, 2004 | 2:52 PM

Babies, I�ve been bad about updating lately. Busy. Happy. Things are good. Things are ridiculously good.

Opening night of Company is Friday. Not that I can be really objective but overall it�s an excellent production and I really hope people come see it. Cabaret was good , but this is far stronger in many respects, and acting wise it is hands down the best work I have ever done. Brutal fucking cathartic shit. I�m ripping open my chest and tearing out my heart for all to see. And for me that�s what being truly alive is about. Life on stage often feels so much more real and visceral than real life (eg wasting 8 hours a day behind a desk. God I can�t wait til I don�t have to that anymore.)

I am entirely immersed in the show right now. Every waking moment more or less is about this play (though I did take myself to the movies yesterday�Kill Bill Volume II�fucking AWESOME. I liked it as much as I liked Pulp Fiction. Maybe more. One of the best love stories I�ve ever seen. And the fighting�Yow!)

This character I play in Company is so frighteningly similar to me in so many ways, although our surface personalities are completely different. And her relationship with her husband is something I am basing acting wise on a past relationship of mine. It�s always interesting to wade through the murk of personal disaster in the context of artistic expression. Anyway, come see the show. You won�t be sorry.