May 30, 2002 | 10:18 PM Another entry about this
I feel much better. I just had a very good, very long talk with Jenn. I think that I said everything I needed to say and I feel like we talked things out and it�s OK. I do love her. I understand. As far as John is concerned, I also care for him deeply. This situation pushed a lot of hot buttons for me. It�s very confusing. I have been mean to him and for that I am sorry. I have a lot of unresolved pain about the relationship�a lot of hurt feelings. It�s all right there in the saga. I don�t know what else to say about it. It�s difficult when you live in close quarters with someone you broke up with. It�s not as though I could go to my own space and cool off. In the past few hours I feel like I have detached from the situation. I feel far more rational. We�ll see. This is positive because I am learning how to deal with conflict and with anger, and I need to learn that. I tend to magnetize situations which force me to look at myself, and for that I honestly am greatful.
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