May 21, 2002 | 5:31 PM

Maybe tomorrow I'll wake up and I won't feel this way. I don't know.

But right now I am excited and just so joyeous that I could start singing in the street.

Isn't it strange how that happens? How one day it seems like there aren't any options and you've hit this brick wall? That everything you thought you couldn't live without disappears and you find yourself cowering in your room, terrified of circumstance.

And then the next day you make a decision. Or you have a revelation. And everything snaps into place. It's like looking at one of those magic eye posters and being so frustrated because you can't see anything and all of a sudden the image pops out at you and you get it.

You have one of those Oh Yeah! moments.

I felt that way when I got my current job and when I started my metaphysics class.

I feel that way now.

Divine intervention. Not in the sense that God swoops down from the sky like a superhero and makes everything all better, but that there's a beautiful rhythm to life. The cosmos is a tapestry and each of us threads our way through the universe creating something incredible, something whole and brilliant. Only sometimes we get too caught up in how we think things should be to see how things actually are.

If you open your mind and really listen you know where you are and where you're going. You can spot the reoccuring motifs in your own life and in the lives of those around you. And then the world is a rose constantly blooming and there are limitless possibilities.

Ghandi knew this. Epictetus knew this. J Krishnamurti knew this.

I feel like I have just wandered back from the dead. I feel like I am learning once again how to breathe.