July 13, 2002 | 2:22 AM

I am completely and totally unloveable.

I wish someone would hit me on the head with a wrench so I would get amnesia and not have to remember the last decade of my life, as I am forever reminded of my own complete and utter irrelevance to everyone I know.

When you say,

When you say,

"I can't be in a relationship right now."

What you really mean is,

"I don't love you because you're unloveable, which is why I'm now with a twenty-one year old hottie."

And you, over there sleeping.

When you say,

When you say,

"I can't give you what you need in a lover."

What you really mean is,

"I don't love you."

Fuck all of you. Fuck you. I am sorry sorry SORRY that I ever laid eyes on that asshole college. I wish I'd gone to an all girls school.

Fuck it. It'll all be over soon enough.

Bang.