July 05, 2002 | 5:34 PM

Hi. I'm OK. I'm actually feeling better. A lot better and much less fatalistic than I did yesterday.

I did manage to trip and scrape the living shit out of my legs outside the clinic, causing a huge scene and making a fool of myself. But other than that I am resting right now and doing alright.

I know that I made the best decision for me and John has been wonderful so far today.

I might not update for a few days. I'll be laying around and watching movies.

Thanks for the beautiful emails and guestbook messages. I really don't know what I would do without diaryland, as cheesy as that sounds.