May 29, 2002 | 6:08 PM

This is all I know.

Right now I feel angry angry angry.

I am angry that Jenn lied to me when I asked her about her apartment search yesterday.

I am angry that she didn�t say anything about her decision to live with John.

I am angry about everything she said about future roommate situations up to yesterday.

I am angry that John never loved me the way I loved him.

I am angry at how things worked out.

I am angry that the dynamic of two important relationships in my life changed right under my nose and I had no say in it.

I am angry at myself for being angry.

I am angry at myself for being jealous.

I am angry that I can�t move into my new apartment tomorrow.

I am angry at John for telling me I have no right to be angry.

I am angry at the way I go about making decisions.

I am angry that I question whether my feelings have any validity.

I am angry that Kurt Cobain shot himself in the head.

I�m angry that Clinton enacted the Telecommunications Act of 1996.

I am angry that I can�t think rationally.

I�m angry that John and I never did anything with our music and probably never will.

I am angry that my dad died.

I am angry that Joel died.

I am angry that Scott died.

I am angry that John never left the Stupid Company.

I am angry at Angus for fucking with my head.

I am angry that George Bush is president.

I am angry that there�s a Gap in Central Square.

I�m angry that Felicity is off the air.

I am angry that my favorite dress has a cigarette burn in it.

I am angry that one of my dresser drawers is broken.

I�m angry at people who pick their noses in public.

I am angry that I owe the video store a lot of money.

I am angry that the love scenes in the new Star Wars movie aren�t better.

I am angry that I allow other people to talk me out of being angry.

I am angry at Arafat and Sharon.

I am angry that Sebadoh hasn�t put out a record in years.

I am angry that I tend towards being maudlin and self-pitying.

I am angry at Courtney Love and Dave Grohl and Krist Noveselich for battling it out in court.

I am angry that I feel like a huge fucking fool.

I am angry that I feel guilty for telling people I�m angry at them.

I am angry at my ex-stepfather for stealing my mother�s money and not paying child support for his daughter.

I am angry that my little sister has to have such a terrible father.

I am angry that I can�t stop smoking today.

I am angry that I�m fat.

I�m angry that I wanna have sex with someone and there�s no one I know who I wanna have sex with.

I am angry that I didn�t get any sleep yesterday.

I am angry that too many people I know read this diary and I�m angry for telling them I have it.

I am angry that I can�t see the forest for the trees.

Fuck fuck fuck FUCK.

Anger.