May 04, 2002 | 9:55 AM

John and I broke up yesterday.

It�s forever. Or at least for a very very very long time.

We�ve been together for six years and it�s been rocky. We both need to be autonomous and make our own choices.

It was the best decision we possibly could have made.

We listened to Robyn Hitchcock and cried and cried.

Then we had break up sex.

I love him more than I can possibly explain and I know he loves me. I can�t imagine caring more for any person in this entire world. It�s funny how people can love each other so much and not be right for each other.

Cruel little joke, that.

We are still going to play music together. And I can�t imagine him not being very close to me in some way.

I am very glad we did this.

But it hurts like a mutherfucker.