February 01, 2002 | 10:21 AM

regarding the WHOLE SAGA:

I�ve found that I really enjoy writing about the past a great deal, and I feel that doing so improves and focuses my writing. I am enjoying going back in time and re-experiencing things in my head.

The act of writing about my life from the age of 19 on is like being in Marty McFly�s Delorean; it feels like I�m actually back in 1997-98. And hindsight being 20/20 and all, writing about things that have happened allows me to see my life in literary terms�to identify themes and provide context.

It strikes me that all of our lives are, or at the very least have the potential to be such amazing stories. If we woke up and realized that we are the protagonists of our own stories, we would actually do things with out lives as opposed to just hanging around, getting drunk, and working at a Stupid Job. Who wants to read a book about someone who waits for things to happen, who never takes initiative. (ok-- Waiting for Godot aside) I always used to think of myself as the heroine of a novel�yes this is pretentious but who gives a fuck? I stopped doing that once John and I moved in together and everything�then I started trying to be �practical� and so forth�not a good fit for my personality.

Now that I�ve said all that�before I continue with the ongoing saga of Anna�s Wild Years (by the way, re-reading it--- to me it comes off as some sort of a screwy combination of Anais Nin, David Sedaris, and a bad episode of Dawson�s Creek), I just wanted to mention that yesterday was my first day of my metaphysics class! It was absolutely thrilling and wonderful. I am a college student!

During the summer I am going to take �The History of Witch Craft� which pretty much sounds like the greatest fucking class of all time.

Anyway... I will return to the saga in the next day or so.

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Very High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
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