2001-12-07 | 9:21 a.m.

I am a very bad girlfriend. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm so goddamned confused about everything. I acted like such an asshole yesterday-- I was really really mean to him and there was no reason to behave so badly. I guess that's what JW meant when she told me I was the most selfish person she had ever met.

I think that I don't know how to receive love from people. I think that has to stop.