Friday, Jan. 23, 2004 | 9:11 AM

HOLY SHIT DUDE.

I wanna talk about it but I can�t yet so you�ll just have to trust me that everything is coming together and you know how I�ve been saying it all works out? Well it does if you just let it. Every single decision I�ve made since May of 2002 has lead me to a more golden place and now it�s all making perfect sense and all of this crazy coincidental synchronistic stuff is happening and soon I won�t have to have a day job anymore and I can�t fucking BELIEVE what�s going on. And it has to do with Matt and with Cabaret and EVERYTHING. YOW!!!! I know I�m not making any sense but I promise someday in the not so distant future I�ll tell you the whole story.

Nobody can tell me that there isn�t an element of destiny at work, and I would like to quote Goethe yet again�

Be bold and mighty forces will come to your aid.

Goddamned right they will.

Matt is coming over tonight. With his guitar. We�re cooking together and playing music together and I love him and everything is perfect. And tomorrow we are meeting with other band members, and god the story of this is so good�it�s better than Fleetwood Mack or The Mamas and The Papas or any of that Behind the Music bullshit. I�ll let you know when the first show is�

All in due time, babies. All in due time.

I am so happy right now.