June 12, 2002 | 2:17 PM

Jesus H. Criminy Jeepers.

I have the strangest feeling right now.

This thing has exploded.

All of a sudden, everyone in the world knows I have this diary.

People who are mentioned or even written about extensively in THE SAGA know I have this diary. They all (or many of them anyway) have online diaries too which I just found out about.

It�s hard to explain but in person I�m really not this confessional or vulnerable at all. And so much of this diary is me just, you know�stripped bear.

I was never so stupid as to think that this was private, and I always wrote with the possibility looming over me that someone(s) I know might read this. I chose to be purposefully as intimate as I possibly could be while I wrote the SAGA. And I�m glad of that. I hope that people�s feelings aren�t hurt but it can�t be helped because I was simply recording my impressions of my life at the time.

I�m not surprised that everybody found out about it. It�s just... strange.

Like having that dream where you show up to school naked except it�s not a dream.

I don�t know how to feel about it.

Right now I just feel really creeped out.

I don�t know how much I like the idea of all my friends knowing me so well.