January 11, 2002 | 3:17 PM

I just watched Girlfight and I am feeling so psyched and inspired right now. Finally-- a movie about a kickass teenage girl who is a hero and doesn't compromise who she is. Michelle Rodriguez is a goddess and after watching this movie I cannot wait to start training again. Fuck losing weight to be attractive to other people. It's all about strength, power, endurance, and speed. I wanna get in shape. I wanna run 4 miles a day again. I wanna bench press 180 lbs. I wanna feel my muscles burn. I wanna sweat. I cannot wait to get back to the gym.

In other news I spoke with Sharon on the phone and told her I thought I was ok enough to go into work tomorrow (it's the big weekend). Sharon paused and said, "No it's much more important to me that you are totally better and that you don't relapse. I want you to take another day to yourself."

I protested but she wouldn't hear of it. Then she said, "I want you to know that all of us realize now that you're not here how much work you do and I want to tell you how appreciated you are and how glad we are to have you with us."

That made me feel so good. It is wonderful to work somewhere where people care about you and appreciate you. I am still glowing from the conversation.

Even though I am still sick today, I am really, really, happy.

I must make sure to tape Girlfight the next time it's on.